(even if I was scared to death going around turns)
! I was asking a lot of my body and being on the mountain made me realize how strong and healthy I really am, even when I fell down I was usually able to stand right up thanks to my core strength and I never felt overly tired or sore from to all of the activity I do in my normal life. It made me realize how far I have come from the insecure and uncomfortable girl I used to be and that got me thinking that I really haven’t shared my personal story about how my love of nutrition shaped me into the dietitian I am today. Also during this trip, I was able to step back from the blog for a week (even though I didn’t really want to)
and think about what exactly my message to my readers is and what are my long term goals for The Blonde Pantry and it hit me that people reading this still might not know what I am trying to accomplish here… So lets just dive right in….. I spent the majority of my young adult life (17-20) obsessing about food, having abs and getting rid of very piece of cellulite that could possibly be on my body. I was always unhappy with whatever I saw in the mirror and I was constantly trying to be a perfect 10 (whatever that means).
On top of a daily one or two-hour cheerleading practice, I would run/exercise for another two hours until the cafeteria closed so I would have to skip dinner and usually drink a diet coke and a 100 calorie bag of popcorn while I finished my homework and then go to bed. On the weekends when I would go out with friends I would usually overeat and then punish myself with more exercise the next day. I would get in countless arguments every time one of my family members or Ryan wanted to go eat at an unhealthy restaurant because it gave me major anxiety to be around unhealthy foods. I was at the point of not having a menstrual cycle for over a year, losing A LOT of my hair and being so depressed I would just cry for no reason (later on I learned that this is called female triad
). Then I got to the point were I knew in my heart I just couldn’t/didn’t want to live like that anymore, I didn’t want to be a slave to the idea of perfection and I wanted to be that girl who could just be comfortable in her own skin and feel confident about the way I looked because I FELT good not because I was physically ‘perfect’. It was a slow process for me to change but I had strong support from my mom who consistently called me out (in a loving way) on my behaviors and made my face the facts. I also quit college cheerleading (this was a huge trigger for me, I know plenty of cheerleaders who never let this affect them but I wasn’t one of them) and joined a sorority filled with all types of girls who were comfortable and happy in their own skin. Also, instead of running from food, I dove in deep to my love for nutrition but I was determined to do it the right way. Becoming a dietitian was just as much about finding self-love as it was about my desire to help others do the same and possibly save someone from the path I chose. Today I am at the point in my life were I truly feel at peace and appreciate my own body and not because it is perfect but because I am healthy, happy and strong. My goal for The Blonde Pantry was to allow my clients to consistently be surrounded by my support, words of encouragement and favorite tips/tricks for when our hour-long appointment just isn’t long enough. My goal for The Blonde Pantry is for women….
To stop having this all or nothing mindset when trying to get to a healthy weight
To learn to love yourself
To feel like a kid again
To stop defining yourself by the numbers on the scale
To appreciate how hard the journey is and to become stronger by what you have been through.
To stop sabotaging yourself from your goals!
To feel good enough, always!
To feel empowered by the process
To enjoy becoming the healthiest you
To never say no to a beach vacation because you are uncomfortable in a bathing suit
To stop doubting yourself
To look at how far you have come, not how far you have left to go.
To say goodbye to self-doubt and hello to self-love
To stop being a slave to food
To stop emotion/guilt eating for good
To know that no food is ever off limits
To praise your body for becoming strong and healthy not skinny and weak
To feel full, happy and energetic after eating not tired, guilty and unsatisfied
To truly love what you are eating
To reach your goals the right way without starving and self-hate
To feel how great a healthy body can feel
To feel strong and alive when you are physically active
To not be afraid to take control of your future
To finally understand that your body contains no limits and it can do anything you ask it to do!
I no longer have a crazy six pack, and the cellulite on the back of my legs is something that will probably never go away but this is the healthiest, strongest, happiest and ‘free-iest’ I have ever felt. If you can relate to anything stated above I encourage you to continue reading and being apart of The Blonde Pantry or to take it to the next level and contact me to setup your initial consult. Even if you are coming from the opposite end of the spectrum we are all fighting the same fight to become the healthiest and happiest version of ourselves!!
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This past week on vacation ended up being surprisingly therapeutic for me. I haven’t skied since I was about 10 years old and the first day on the slopes I was starting from scratch. Rarely in adult life do we get to start anything from scratch and I was determined to not be afraid, to push myself and to truly feel alive